On Being Blessed.

We spent the night at St. Joseph’s

Shaking and shivering in fever
Nurses and criminals before us
I will stay here with you, my love

We sat at Lake Junaluska
And cried over where we would wed
If it’s this place or any other
It’s not where I am, it’s who I’m with

News came of a child
Born unto a world
Of people, demented and wild
I will be here for you, my love

What was our reason for fighting
Selfish and centered at best
I give up on trying
To understand why we were blessed
[St. Joseph's-The Avett Brothers]

Constantly I don't get it. I want to figure out everything.
But since I am blessed, and since I am loved, I need to accept it.
I've been listening to this song on repeat for a month, and I finally am listening to it.

I am on top of the world. Today I had one of the most frustrating days in a long time. I gave it up to the Lord and he helped guide the most wonderful guy around to help me with whatever was going on.

I'm so incredibly blessed.
I must give up on trying to understand why, and remember that I am blessed.

I was broken today. Really, truly broken. Four hours later, I am fine. I cannot express it better than this.

What was our reason for fighting
Selfish and centered at best
I give up on trying
To understand why we were blessed