I have a cell phone.
I have a mac book.
I have a digital SLR camera.
I have 4 film cameras.
I have a TV.
I have a mini-fridge.
I have a dodge pick up.
I have an ipod.
I have a bed.
I have a desk.
I have a home.
I have food.
I have not only the clothes on my back but the clothes in my closets at school, and at home.
I have shoes.
I have books.
I have movies.
I have everything I could ever need to get by in my every day life, but I want more.
I wanted a cover for my phone, so I got one.
I wanted new lenses for my cameras, so I got some.
I wanted a lamp for my desk, so I got one.
I wanted a new shirt to perfect an outfit, so I got one.
I wanted snacks to eat for the time in between classes, so I got some.
How ridiculous am I?
I have, I want, I got, I need.
I have everything I could have ever asked for.
I want so many material things.
I got new toys and new clothes.
I need more to keep up with what society wants from me.
And I give?
I give nothing away.
Not true, I give away some clothes.
Well only when they are out of style, or don't fit anymore.
And sometimes I give some of my snacks to my friends when they visit.
I let people borrow stuff, that counts right?
Wrong.
Wrong, wrong, wrong.
I look at what I have, and then I look at what I give.
There is ZERO comparison.
I
AM
SELFISH.
I
AM
UNWORTHY.
And still,
I
AM
LOVED.
I
AM
CHERISHED.
By the one true God.
He is.
He will always be.
Everything that I have will be lost when I am no longer.
But he will be. He will exist. He will.
I should really try to be less selfish.
But those shoes are on sale...
Its a never-ending cycle.
I am nothing, He is everything.
1 comment:
Hey em,
I just had something I wanted to share with you about your upcoming(?) post about Africa:
"The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet." -Frederick Buechner
I read that today and it made me think of you, and the thought process you were going through the other day. I hope it's encouraging!
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